this blogspot has died.

as you've noticed, i havent had anytime to update this. im switching over to tumblr since it connects to twitter (twitter.com/rynaaa) . so goodbye rynaaajoanne.blogspot.com :)

i want this (:

sweat pants, hair tied, chilllen with no make up on.

Point out the obvious. Tell them my flaws. I could care less. Right now everything seems to be overwhelming and falling apart. Im not perfect, I make mistakes. You guys expect so much from me. This perfect life, this imperfect person. I can't keep up with it. I need someone. Just a friend. A friend who'd give me advice, listen to me vent, and just be there. Im not asking for a lover. Really, just a friend. That person who'd make me laugh when I didn't even feel like smiling. That somebody. Lately, I've kept my thoughts and opinions to myself. I don't like hurting others. I don't like making them feel bad either. Im a lover, not a hater. I just feel like no one seems to care for anyone but themselves these days. Its either your conceited or too modest. Both negative. I'd do anything to bring some people back into my life. You really don't know what you have until its gone. rip tatay, imy. Nothing seems to feel right. No one shows their inner self nowadays. Its always about doe, sex, and love. Its seems like there's always someone you need to impress. People deny it, but its true. Why can't we just all be ourselves? Its caused we get judged & discriminated. For example, im always happy. I tend to smile and laugh a lot. People always assume there's something wrong when im not. And usually, they're right. My attitude and appearance give people the wrong idea. The way I dress and talk doesn't explain anything about me. I've been checked for weed before. And no, I don't smoke. Never had and never will. I don't pop either. I think it's stupid and a waste of time. I like trying new things, but smoking & popping will never be one. Im probably not what you call a good girl, but I am wise. Good girls know their limits, but wise girls know they have none. I love going to parties and clubs but I also love staying home and chilllen with the fam. They're irreplaceable. Call me a nerd, I love books too. I bet you didn't know that. My priorities are perfectly straight. I follow this never taken dusty path. I like being me. I choose mind over matter. I learned not to mind since you probably will never matter. My style, my swag. Im honest. I've recently stopped caring about what other people think. Its time I do me, for me. I've got big dreams that im chasing. I've got real friends that im keeping. In this life, im fighting. Ugh, that bitch, im scrapen. Ohh shittt, you knooow =) my opinions, my words, my thoughts. keep up.

recognize us real women.

I think its funny how you go around telling people that we didn't dance with "nobody" at the club. Well FYI, we did. Im sorry if you're saying this cause we didn't dance with you. Just stop. Stop exaggerating and shit. Im sorry im not one of those hoes, sluts, bitches, or whatever you wanna call it that dance with every random guy they see and tap them on the shoulder. The guys who asked "aye, wanna dance?" I politely said "oh nah, it's cool." With a smile so they won't think im bitchy. Anyways, its stupid how you pulled and force girls to dance with you when you already know they really don't wanna dance with you. Give respect to earn respect. Oh, and now "that girl, this girl, that" is coming out of your mouth. So what now? You think you're cool? Ha, think again. Why won't you just tell your little friends the cons of what you did that night. I bet they heard nothing about that. I know my sis & I aren't pros at freaking and we probably will never be but we're classy young females with good intentions anyways. Please just learn to respect and accept that. And to the guys who were alright with me not dancing with them, I appreciate it. Thanks. Real gentlemen though. Now that's wassup. I DON'T TALK SHIT, I STATE FACTS. ugh, I just really needed to let things out. Im really bothered by this. Don't get butthurt, it's my blog anyways.

got something to say?

Bitch, my face is right here. Never was it in that girrrrls ear.

cheaters.

its hilarious how people can cheat on someone they say they "love" wow bitch, wow. AHA.

May15.

So yesterday I got home at around 10 or 11 and was really tired so I couldn't blog. Yesterday was fun though (: Started my day with the usual school thing to watch senior exhibitions. It was was alright. My second to last one was kinda interesting. Norman was trying to tease me the whole damn time tho! UGH, its cool...he's still my favorite senior. Only he knows wsup tho. AHA, but hey, the pit bull was cute. Anywho, ohs let us out 10 minutes earlier than usual. I walked down the hill in heals to meet up with sis. See how much trouble I go through for her? Haha. Its funny how people said it was cute how we matched. haha. And this girl daisy was like "aye are you guys twins?" hilarious. So we got on the bus and omg, we had to stand up. The usual guys in the back of the bus kept yelling my name. Hahaha, wow. So we got off by ranch 99 and went to taco bell to fix ourselves. Haha. Then we went to Serramonte to buy thongs and cause we were kinda hungry. Oh, and I needed to buy my mom a birthday present. We were walking to the foodcourt entrance when these guys in their car stopped in front of us and asked us how we were doing. Aha funny. Oh, & we saw simon & rodney. I felt bad cause I didn't get to kicket with rodney on wednesday and he's graduating soon. Man oh man. So we end up going to the bathroom, cause yea. We had to fix our hair and such. Hahaha. So we had taco bell and ice cream. We went to "things to remember" and I got my mom a personalized photo frame. Then yea and yea. We took bus to matt c's place for his party. Thanks for the invite! It was fun. Haha, there was osh & west people there. The guys tried scaring us though. Hahaha, it was funny. So we went home at around 10-ish. Oh, I almost fergot...there was this bitch. Aha, I was hellla tired when I got home though. So I KO-ed earlier than usual. Overall, good day. I love spending my fridays with these people(:

MY SIS, KIM.

SIS. Doooo, i dont even know where to begin! This girl knows wsup. Thank god i found her. ahaha. So i met this girrrl last year. It was just a hi and bye thing though. Little did we know we'd end up being "sisters" She transferred to IBL from Westborough. It was a wednesday actually & i was doing my so called "community service" at IBL. haa, bullshit. These kids run up to me saying "aye theres this new girl kim. She reminds us of you. You guys look alike" So i call up this "hey love" girl. AHAH! She said she was at the bus stop with this so called kim. I walk to the bus stop and see her. OH SHIT. I was like "heeey, its you" coincidence though! So like i said people say we look alike at times, and some say we dont. It's their opinion, not ours. So, my SIS. She's like my adventure buddy. We start at one place and end somewhere miles away. We have adventures though. We barely plan things too. We just go with the flow. ahah. I remember going to tanforan to watch Obsessed with Jan, Ron, Veronica, and Clark. So like at 10pm we have no ride home! I call up a "friend" & OMG, good thing he gave us a ride to serramonte. Even though we almost got into an accident, we made it. If he wasnt there, we'd be walking from tanforan to serramonte just to take the bus home. Oh and did i mention? This girl can eat! i sweaar. She can eat large fries and still be hungry. But she stays skinny +boobs. haha sexy. And we have these stalkers. HAHA, boys nowadays. They seem so desperate. But heey, the attention though. HEAD TURNERS. DICK POINTERS. We get it. These girls hate on us cause they aint us. Jealousy is a bitch. Want drama? We'll give it to you. We're nice girls though. I promise! So we think a lot of guys are cute. That doesnt mean we're players. We just crush alot. We dont really want a boyfriend, a commitment, or any of that typa shit. We just wanna be friends. People dont believe us when we say we never had boyfriends. Hilarious. We're highly educated too. Smarter than yaa average. We barely wear makeup. ALL NATURAL. Unless its friday of course. Our fridays are bomb though. We have those last minute kicket days. Like last friday, haha. We went to the mall to eat. Then we see Matt, Matt, Lyle, Ralph, Ron, & Andrew. We kicket with them and end up eatting at Denny's. They're coo though. And its never boring when you're with them. So tomorrows another friday. Plans? School first of course. Then chill by westmoor and matts party afterwards. And if you're asking about our outfits, they're cute! Black leggings, yellow shirts, brown boots, thongs..ahahaha, pearls, and light makeup. My hair is going to be curled. And hers? straight, cause its so damn short. She's still pretty though. People say we look old. 16 17 18 19 22......24! ahaha, we just turned 15 though. APRIL! Man oh man, this girl. We're so alike. Its like we can relate to everything about each other. Smart. Independent. Classy and Sophisticated. And really nice. Just say hi to us(: We're not into that "be a pussy" shittt. Please dont waste our time. If you wanna get to know us, let us know. Especially if you're really cute. jk jk. We're not desperate. Just innocent girls with good intentions.

whatever.

Those bitches don't know me even if they say they do. Well they might know OF me, but i mean... they still don't know the real me. feelme? Don't be going around places saying "aye you know that ryna girl?" nigga please, shut the fuck up. You think you're cool now cause you have the guts to say shit about me to other people? Say it to my god damn face and lets see what happens. Newsflash bitch, I don't live to please your skanky ass selves. You think you're bad now? Ahahahaha. Hilarious! So about makeup. So guys say they hate seeing girls with makeup. Others say if they look better with it then its cool. Some even say some girls look like ghosts without makeup on. Aha. The fact that some boyfriends never seen their girls faces without makeup cracks me up. Dude, ewh. If you're going out with someone shouldn't you be okay with letting them seeing your natural beauty? Well that's unless you don't "natural beauty. Haha. I mean, I wear makeup too but it's not everyday. Usually on fridays when im on those adventures with SIS. Hahahaha, you think makeup hides ugly? Its either you're pretty or you're not. "Forever 21 doesn't hide ugly either." -Anthony. SIS is so damn lucky to have such a beautiful face though! That bitch that I love a lot(: Man oh man. So boys. Today I realized which guys have my back. I swear, im so thankful to have them in my life. Having them pick me over their "boys" made my day. And its not even something they said, its something they did. Who knew someone would go that far just for me? Man, I gotta love my ohs boys though(: And someone to join xcountry, for a awhile just to say "hi" and get to know me. Wow(: its cute, real cute, hella mother fucken cute. Hahaha. Maybe ohs isn't that bad after all. We'll see. 4 more years. Oh boy<3

over it.

I'm so damn tired of everything. I'm sitting here and I've been accused of a crime of giving you everything but my time. I still care about you. I'm not trying to cause trouble but I think its better if i just let everything go without saying a word. Like they say"actions speak louder than words " It's not your fault, its mine. It's cool, I got it. I'm over it. I'm happy(:

it was the way you made me laugh when I didn't even want to smile.

im done.

TELL ME WHY? Dude, wow irritated. Im hella mother fucken shocked. You know when people say no ones perfect? I guess its true. Right now my hearts beating hella fast... man, i trusted you too. HAAA, im not stupid. The game will never change. I have my girls and they're all i need. They make me so damn happy. But wow. Shit dude. wow. I'm speechless. So now i know wsup. And now it feel like its whatever. I shouldn't care. I'm over it, fuck you.

looks are deceiving.

- You look like you go to Elco.
- You look like you get a 1.5.
- You probably drink/smoke/pop.
- You look like a bad girl.
- You don't look like a freshmen.
-"Honestly if i didnt know you, i'd think you were a mean, stupid, shopaholic, girly girl" -bestfriend.

There isn't a day where those comments aren't said to me. Looks are deceiving but i cant blame people for thinking what they want to. Still, dont be prejudice. I mean, if you want to know something about someone go ahead and ask them. Dont go ahead thinking someones this or someones that by their approach, attitude, or appearance. Dont get me wrong, there are people who look like bitches and act like they're the shit. But im not saying that opinions are stupid or what not, but i think it'd be better if you just kept them to yourself. Well thats unless you want drama. And thats shit talker stuff. BE REAL. get to know people before you judge them.

good day.

So today the weather was perfect. Warm & windy. I went to Ocean beach at around 12 and chilled there with the fam. It was cool. I mean, i think my moms kinda getting over yesturday but its whatever. Good thing my dad got me on this one. So, oceana beach. Well yea, i basically just sat on the sand at watched Jill play. It was alright. We went to In&Out after. I havent been there in months! aha. Last time was what? With Tiffany. I shopped with Jill after. She was being a brat like always. I got 2 shirts and this cute cheetah print bag (: you know wsup. I went home and just chilled in my room. AHA! phone call was funny. I get a lap dance monday. right lyle? NICE. My favorite sophomores though. So yeaa, thats it. BTW, i miss my diary derick nguyen(:

all i need.

Cracken ass friday. School grind till 2:35 then kicked it with SIS and ate at serramonte. AHA! "aye wsup, my boy knows your name and he thinks you're cute" These niggas though. Crazy. So we shopped for a while and we matched! We bought white v-necks and matched again. People kept saying we looked alike and stuff. I love KIM though. We met up with MattL, Lyle, MattC, Ron, Ralph, and Andrew. They shopped for mother day cards (: cuties. We ate at Denny's after. What an adventure. We kept laughing the whole night. "nonya business" aha. Oh, we met Lyle's parents. They're hella coool. Took bus home with SIS & Ron. Overall, good day. Btw, jealous bitches can suck my big fat dick. Im sorry you don't like us. Think we're bitches? Well thats OLD NEWS. Get with it, or get lost. THANKS (:

to sum it all up.

NEW BLOGSPOT. So today i was out of it. I mean, i came to school with people thinking i was high. wtf? Seriously, get to know the real me. And lately, things have been a little crazy. My grades are slippen +things arent the way they used to be. People were right "high school turns people into something they said they would never be" AHA. i shouldn't care but i love my friends. They're always there when i need them, its just all this bad stuff took over them. So far high school has been overwhelming. So much happened this year that i don't even know where to start. In January, my grandpa passed away. Dude, that really hurt a lot though. I was really close to him. Lets see, we got back to school on January 5 from winter break and i took plane on January 7 to go to the Philippines. So i come back to oceana on February 2 with all these rumors about me. hilarious. BITCHES THOUGH. But oh fucken well its cool, i got it. FEBRUARY. MARCH. APRIL. Nothing really happened in march, same old same old. In April we had interim. man oh man. That was a lifetime experience though. I learned so much about people i never even talked to. I lived in a tent with Tiffany at a farm on pascadero for one whole week. There were Freshmen, Sophomores, Juniors, & Seniors there also. The first night was terrible! It was cold and wet. As the week went on, i started to talk to these chill ass sophomores. Nina, MattL, Lyle, MattC, and Ralph. They were really nice. They made pie ranch super fun too. We'd have crackin late night conversations in our tents. "WWJD?" "She got a donk." AHAHA. "Oh, and don't judge a book by its cover & girly music makes guys hella cute" <- remember this? MAN, i miss it. TODAY: So today i was asked 'what do you look for in a guy?' And i replied with "Actually, i don't know what i look for in a man. All i know is im good with or without one." Was that the right answer? I mean, maybe. But i really don't know. I just don't. I think there's a lot of cuties though (: But still, school focused for now. Until someone proves me wrong... yeah. So anyways, i woke up at 6am and did no homework whatsoever. I took my daily morning shower, got dressed, got my hair done, and yeah. I come to school asking desperately for homework. aha, PROCRASTINATION. First period i had humanities. We went to the computer lab and i just sat there. Seriously. for 80 min. I really wasn't in the mood. In science i wrote in Austin's agenda notebook like always and paid no attention to Reidy. Oh, and he gave me advice. HAHA. So mike & Alex were trying to be supper nice like always and giving random ass compliments about everything. I mean its cool, just be real. Such flirts though. PE, we had roller coasters. I did pretty good & passed, but it was tiring! I haven't ran in so long. I cant wait until cross country in September! Afterschool i went to the cafe as usual and went to Serramonte with my SIS KIM. This nigga is always hungry. aha, ILY! After an hour or so we went home. Oh, and i got asked to prom again today. And did i mention? There's this one cutie.... THE END. aha.